So, met this guy. Worst place to meet people cause most turn out to be creepers. Internets. We’ve been dating for 5 days and counting. He wakes up around 12 so we talk way into the night after my phone is supposed to be off. He makes me smile. He makes my world go round. We’ve only known each other for about a month, but we’ve talked about moving in together since he’s 19 and i’ll be 18 this summer. He’s the best guy I’ve known besides family, cause most of the guys in my family are amazing people. I might even love him. I’m just worried I’m going to lose him cause I’m not good enough. He’s funny and sweet and nerdy. I love it! He’s a gamer boy and is constantly online talking to me and playing games. I’m nervous because we got kind of sexual the other night and it seems like it’s too soon from a rational point, but my heart and body just wanted to be all his. He’s so special to me. 

1. The meaning behind my URL:

Would love to be a bad ass bass players but i don’t have the attention span to learn :/

2. Weakness: 

Cupcakes, romantic dates, beautiful eyes(especially when they belong to Zach.)

3. Bestfriend(s): 
Falyn and Zach.

4. Last time I cried and why: 
The other night when I was leaving Zach’s house cause I didn’t wanna go.

6. Favorite rapper/rap group: 

Hate all you want but I like ICP and Eminem.

7. Biggest turn off(s): 
Douche muffins, furry chest/backs.

8. Fact about my sex life: 
I wish I was still a virgin cause the guy i gave in to is an ass hat.

9. Tattoos I want: 
My two grandmas on my shoulders cause they always have/had my back, “love” on my thigh cause i cut “hate” into it when i was young.

10. Biggest turn on(s): 
Green and blue eyes, my back being touched softly, light kisses.

11. Age: 
17

12. Ideas of a perfect date: 
Space Needle, Pacific Science Center.

13. Life goal(s): 
Find happiness and romantic love cause I already have family love.

14. Piercings I want: 
Nose, cartilage, second lip ring.

15. Relationship status: 
Taken.

16. Favorite movie: 
The new Footloose.

17. A fact about my life: 
It’s been a journey for sure.

18. Phobia:
Spiders and creepy crawler shit on me when I can’t see what it is.

19. Nicknames I have: 
Gabbs, glow stick, kitten, kitty.

20. Tattoos I have: 
None…Yet.

You hurt my feelings yesturday. I know you won’t see this but I gotta get this out of my system. You say you want to last long but then you say really insensitive stuff to me. I cried for like two hours last night cause I feel like I’m not good enough for you. You were saying how pretty those freshmen girls were and how if they were older you’d be all up on that, while I’m standing right next to you. And when you said your friend thought I was ugly, it sounded like you didn’t even bother standing up for me. I guess if you keep doing dumb shit like this, we won’t last. I really like you and I want this to work, but, come on. Don’t be an asstard. I’m still hurt by what you said and now I feel like I’m gonna cry again.

Reblog what you want but you’re never gonna break me
Anons and their hate are never gonna shake me, no
Ohh, oh oh

Reblog all daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay,
Scroll through the niiiiiiiiiight.
My followeeeeers,
always by my siiiiide

THIS IS WHY I LOVE TUMBLR PEOPLE.

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Thank you for sticking with me through this crazy ex boyfriend drama. You’re totally epic, and even though I know you aren’t gonna see this, I want to say, I think I love you. You make me happier than I’ve been in a long time. Even when I was with he who will not be named, I was never this happy. Thank you for making me see my own beauty. I’m uber proud of you for finishing high school and when they call your name for you to get your diploma, I’m gonna cheer so loud! <3, Me.

My sweetheart of a boyfriend got hit by a car but he’s okay, luckily. The guy was nice enough to give him a ride to where he was going and $20. I really hope he’s alright and not just saying that so I won’t worry. I really like him and if anything happened to him, I’m not sure what I would do. Prolly cry.

Going to bed my dear tumbl-loves. Sleep well, all of you and have good dreams :]

Today wad awesome. Slept till 3, woke up, talked to my cutie boy, watched tv, took a shower and now I’m sitting here all fresh and clean.

Can’t freaking sleep so I guess I’ll blog. Yesturday was uber lovely and he said he hopes we last many summers. I hope so too. I mean, it’s only been 5 days but each day has been more perfect than the last. I never want this feeling to go away. He makes my heart shine like the sun when it decides to give us a 85 degree day. My mom says she hasn’t seen me so happy in ages. I’m just a hopeless romantic and he seems like the most amazing match for me. All of my exes tried to make me feel pretty and he not only does that, he makes me believe it too. When he kisses me, sparks fly, fireworks go off and I want to cry cause it’s so amazing. He lives in a homeless shelter right now, which makes me sad, but he’s moving to an apartment soon with his mom and sister. He has an awesome relationship with his family too, which is super important to me since I have that too. He’s everything I could ever want in a guy all wrapped into one amazingly adorable package. He’s kind of a spazz but that’s good cause I am too.

I’m so happy right now that I’m crying. He makes me feel beautiful. No one has ever been able to make me feel like that before and it’s so gorgeous that my insides feel like fireworks going off. He gave me his jacket to hold on to and I think I’m gonna put it on a pillow and cuddle with it tonight. Goodnight my dear tumblr loves. <3

His kisses are delicious, they made my head swim like fishes.